A deep emotional state of nostalgic or profound melancholic longing for something or someone that one cares for and/or loves. 

Moreover, it often carries a repressed knowledge that the object of longing might never be had again. It is the recollection of feelings, experiences, places, or events that once brought excitement, pleasure, and well-being, which now trigger the senses and make one experience the pain of separation from those joyous sensations. 

Saudade describes a feeling both happy and sad, and might be most closely related to the English expression ‘bitter sweet’



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There's a certain shade of beauty 
    in remembering the 
        happiness 
            you once shared 
                with a former partner
        
                        Your trials, 
                            your victories, 
                                how much you've given to 
                                    and did for each other


      It's a sickly sweet sadness that reminds me:
                    
        light/dark 
                       happy/sad
                                    joy/despair 
                                                                            
          are all two sides of the same coin 
                          and 
          neither can exist without the other

So while moments of remembrance 
   (
      especially when you're: 
         neck-deep in the miasma of loss 
            before the loss has taken place, 
               drowning in the aches of 
                  should-could-would-haves
                     )
                        can bring you to your knees, 
                           you can also relish 
                              in the fact 
                                  that your shared 
                                     happiness 
                                        will never 
                                           be diminished.


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I beg you not to burn the mementos from those 
with whom you once shared love and peace.

They are a piece of you, 
    you watered and nurtured one another for a time,     
                                 and you once were happy. 

                    You can love them with a passive joy
               even if they never speak to you again, 
          and in doing so you will find 
     the love that you
will hold for yourself once more.